I just wanted to touch some one's feet today...but i just don't have any... After conveying it to boss...i called five people to break the news and only two of them picked up..maa and prerna ...Dennis, Munna Bhaiya and Vishal didn't respond...these are the moments that you realize whatever you may achieve..it has no meaning till you have a family...I hope boss gives me a call tonight..pata nahin woh bhi kisi baat pe naraaz hain..

Whst's the news?? Recieved an offer letter from Microsoft for a full time employment..

There has to be some problem with me...just couldn't have a single person on this earth love me...no no not in the way i would have liked them..but any which way possible on this earth..

The source of my life was always questionable..do i belong to the man who in writing is my father or otherwise...the gal who introduced love for the opposite sex, left me wanting when i probably needed her the most..no friends to boast about except for the virtual web that i have been weaving since childhood..why do i always have to crib?? am i loser ?? may be i am..hell you are.......

She said i was a seasoned flirt...yaar kuchh to kami hogi mere pyar main..na apne shabdon se, na karmon se, na bhavnaon se..unko kabhi nahin ehsas dila paaya ki unke mere liye kya maayne hain..boss.. jaane dijiye..kuchh kahunga to aap kahoge ki main flirt kar raha hoon...

mujhe nahin pata paap hai ya punya...par jab bhi unke baare main sochta hoon to darr lagta hai kahin woh maili na ho jaayen...kabhi unko chhone ka khayal aata hai to is baat se mann bhar aata hai ki mujhe Moksha mil jaayega...kabhi unko paane ka khayal aata hi nahin...kyun ki ishwar ko paana sambhav nahin..

khud k likhe shabdon ko padhta hoon to khud pe shaq hota hai..ya to I am suffering from a physiological disorder ya main nihayat hi bewakoof ya banawati insaan hoon...ya phir my good old theory..."I am a bloody misfit..."

Bus aapko aapki marzi ki, khush zindagi jeete hue dekhne ka khuaab hai...agar ye bhi irrational hai...to i can't do anything about it..apna verdict clear hai...devdas na hote hue bhi..."I drink until death....(nahin abhi shudhh hoon)"

Koi shikayat bhi nahin hai..bus dua hai aapko rajkumari ki tarah jeete hue dekhne ki..

They say dream big...maine shayad kuchh zaada hi bada sapna dekh liya...

Please hate me but love urself as i would have loved to...

What Vaibhav Means

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you. You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

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I am at quiet a juncture in my life..an opportunity to be a part of the so called big "M" full time...the cash inflow will increase, so would the professional stature...but would anything change that really matters to me. I don't think so.

I have never wanted to be looked in awe, earn millions, categorized as a so called "intellectual..." My dreams have ever been so simple... living a life that touches the life of people I love...taking care of them. Every moment I just dream of whispering to her, I will do whatever you say, live life in a way you see fit, with the person you choose...but let me just take care of you..let me ensure that each day of yours is filled with joy. I feel so helpless when I realize that all I can do for her is blabber how much i care and nothing else. How do i tell her that to me the purpose of my life seems to be taking care of her, retiring to her authority, and feeling her overwhelming presence.

Boss you matter the world to me.